Ha. Ha. Nah. You see, I thought that maybe, just maybe, the giggles, and mending friendship would mean something, but I guess not. It didn't really make sense too think that popular girls would out of their way to talk to me, no, I had to spike up a conversation just to receive a stupid five letter response. I should of known, I am a nobody. And I need to stop attempting to be something I can never be, happy.
Not even the wierdo squad fully wants me to join them. Sure, I chat up a striking conversation, but at least to them, it means something. But there is this one girl, who doesn't despise me, but she doesn't want me to listen to their gossip, or even do lame bathroom hangouts. I don't understand why, because everyone else is chill with it. She bosses me around, and i'm kinda sick of it. You could say I am a pushover. Which would really explain lots of things.
I always do what everyone else wants, I always allow people to say and do whatever they feel towards me, and I just never have my own opinion on certain topics. I let people trample all over me, without knowing what to respond with in return. I am just sensitive, and a pushover, and all around I just let everything affect me, even when it shouldn't. I can't help it. I want help. I need help.
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