I have 31 posts, 1 follower, and 0 comments, and even  0 views towards writings. Now I have page views, plenty, but that has nothing to do with myself pouring out all my feelings into these posts. Why am I upset. I should be happy that nobody cares about this dark hole in my heart, that this blog just relieves me of my feelings. I should actually say that I am satisfied with lack of caring. I was in the business of boring, and I still don't know why that upset me. I shouldn't be, I should be happy that no one would ever read this, or even have a clue. I am actually thrilled. Thanks.