a loser can dream

I have been racking my brain on high schools. What's holding me back? I know, I want away from the people, and the environment of my school. I don't get why I was still dreading everything. I don't want to go any other school, than this fantastic rich girl school. I am already in a charter, but this high school, has everything. They give a personal iPad for work, they have any elective you can think of, they have a warm, and comforting environment (at least from their speech) , they have financial aid, meaning that you can work to pay it off, and they have a gorgeous location. I want to attend that school, but it looks like a ghetto public school is my only choice. I am scared to go, and scared to go any where else.