rumored rumors

I realize that everyone talks about everyone, and I definitely am one of the talked about victims. I rather them say it too their friends then to my face. I rather the gossip kings and queens not see my face as they shoot me with looks in addition to rude criticism. Jonathan is the one who makes them all up. I believe that he is the predominant bully, I wish would just disappear. Yesterday, I was called fat, and selfish because I did not share my food to him, but another kindhearted girl. Today, he said that I had no one to take me anywhere. This was mentioned as an effect to my comment of "that sound awkward" when he was with his friend asking him to take him to the movies or something. I don't know why I take everything he says personal. I can't understand what causes me to crack when he is mean, or why he even labels my every feature and action. I honestly don't ever have anything cruel to say to him, I do, but i'm not so cold hearted to point every single flaw out to him. I rather not deal with it, so I try to avoid him everyday. It doesn't work.