what you'd think

you would think after all this development from 2013, i would be fantastic. sure i pretend not to care, and attempt to fall through with it, but i am. my friends crack under the judgment too, i think that's why they want to follow the popular girls. i think they want to be them, and discard my fat ass, and just be a clone of the "popular's". i don't, i want to be myself, and everyone to be themselves. i need to stop worrying about myself, and what others perception of me is. it should not matter, they are irrelevant. then why do i care. i don't know. i am done caring, im done doing whatever any one else wants, i am going to be me. me it is, all me.